Today I am 26 (some would say 38 but who listens to them? ;-)). This is the first time I don’t feel like saying my age out loud. It might seem like an accute case of midlife crises but I choose to see it as a crises of meaning. Meaning, I came to believe, is something I actively create and choose to align my life with and therefore there is always hope.
Ideas that I earlier saw as separate projects are now gathering into constallations almost without my conscious participation and tied up around one particular destination which is more about a way to be than a place to go to. In other words, lots of work and I have no idea where I will end up. 🙂 I started drafting it and will tell more about it here and on Creative Response of course.
I never particularly liked pictures of myself but it can be fun to look back at that frozen in time and space image of now a stranger.
Apparently, I picked up Find-out-for-yourself principle at the tender age of hm… something. Haven’t stopped since then. Sometimes it costs me teeth but it’s entirely worth it.
She seems lika someone who knows exactly what she wants. Calm confidence. We will overcome!
Self-portrait is a journey inside. What side of me do I choose to explore? To commit myself to actually set aside some time for painting and to increase self-awareness I challenged myself to make not one but seven self-portaits in the medium of my choice. I got started on the first one…
I might need to learn to bend and stretch time first to squeeze it all into 24 hours.
In the last year thanks to the insights from the meditation practice I came to revise what matters to me and what I actually believe in. Believes that pretty much shape my choices these days:
- I believe each one of us has a unique journey we have to take in the course of our lives
- I believe it is my task to actually discover and realise my true nature, who I am and why I have come here
- I believe this kind of realisation is not possible on the intellectual level, outside the context but rather through living and direct experience of life and that we can attain that level of intimacy with life through meditation. In other words – more practice! 🙂
I have to say something about fish. My zodiac sign is Pieces and although I don’t really believe in that it matters much, I will celebrate yet another day on this planet by watching some of my favourite video bits and pieces that remind me of how precious this place and my time on it is. This one is about the fish.
Sunfish (Mola Mola) is an amazing creature that I first say in a Marine Zoo in Lissabon. It moved in an awkward way and radiated benevolence. I loved this TED video and TierneyThys’ enthusiasm in studying sunfish.